Puppy love.

Today was one of few that I could actually say I was completely worn out! Let's break it down.

I was knocked up on Nyquil all night last night because I had the gross symptoms of a cold coming about! You see, every year I am blessed with a cold from christmas eve all the way through after new years! Oh don't be jealous y'all, it's only a Christmas gift I am fortunate to have!

I woke up in a daze because let's face it, Nyquil really messes you up! So it took me a while to understand that I feel so crappy because I do have a cold and the Nyquil didn't come through for me!

Hours later I remember being served pancakes, sausage, hotdog omelet, and some V8 juice to wash it all down! Thankyou baby! He truly is where my heart belongs.

I get up, take some Dayquil, kiss my love goodbye and get started on the dishes.

Play with Bradley and take him to go potty on one of those training mats ya know? Yah, he always seems to miss except for the occasional times, those times he always gets a big ol congrats followed by lots of kisses and hugs! But unfortunately not today!

Later we get the two rascals that we promised our buddy we'd watch! Panda and Sweetie, sweet was hard to find behind those crazy-make- me- want- to - pull- my - hair-furballs! I promise you, three dogs to one sick 100 lb girl, is not a pretty sight! Probably a great leg slapper from one looking from the outside but these shoes are boy oh boy tired and never stopped running around!

I lied, I took a breather which lasted me about 30 minutes! But I don't need much, that cat nap did a heck of a job on me!

I returned to playing with the pups! But my day would have been concluded as decent if it wasn't for one crooked old woman.

If you are someone who is well aware of me and my life, it won't be hard to figure out who she is but if you don't, well I'll be damned, I wish I was you!

She got to me. After all of the mean words, evil stares, stabs in the back, poking of the eyes, spitting on the neck, voodoo doll torture, all figuratively speaking of course, she finally got to me! Just because you raised me and took me in, it does not give you the right to throw me out like old food at a restaurant and then continue to push me down lower and lower! I have escaped your manipulative games! I have freed myself from your burdens that you used to punish me for! You have taught me plenty of evil mind games and the only thing I learned from them was how to push them aside or beat them! You have taught me to how to raise a child and the only thing I learned from that was to not make your own mistakes!

You used to scare me to where I'd want to hide under my covers with a shield of tears, but I wiped the tears away, the covers are off and I will one day come for you with my guns loaded!

You used to drill in to my head that survival was going to be impossible without you, but I never needed you in the first place! With you, I was never living! I was in hiding from a world I have finally embraced!

I have been on my own and it has been hard! But it has never been harder than having to go through day after day of you screaming in my ear or breaking me down to tears or belittling me! I am a woman now! I am grown and I have no body but myself to thank! And if I were to thank the few people who gave me hand or shoulder, not after a million names would I mention you!

He is gone and I know this, but I can still feel more love coming from him than I ever will coming from you! How dare you, you sick lady to tell me how ungrateful or undeserving I am! Or even if I am living right! You will not make me feel ashamed for taking what my father left behind for me! I am living with it! You? I don't even want to know what your cold heart does with it! I know you loved him! But when he died, I think the love for your children followed him to the grave! I'm letting you go! I will not follow you! I'm happy! That's what he would want !

Sorry, long day! Thanks for listening!