Sophia Sparkles.

Had to backblip this, as I couldn't bring myself to do it on Monday night.

We all went back to work today, I only worked until 10a.m. so had the rest of the day off.

Took some more unused drugs back to the chemist, and then went supermarket shopping. This was the first big shop I'd done in 2 weeks, and I kept finding myself, thinking 'what can I get Christian for luch today. What would Christian like to drink.' And then the awful realization kicks in.

I came home to an empty house, no voice calling out to me, no-one to come downstairs to see what I had bought.

I had to put the TV on just to have some noise in the house.

I spent the rest of the day putting up some more Christmas decorations.

Alexandra was home by 4.15 so we went to see Christian's grave, my husband would go there on the way home from work.

It has been raining hard all day, and the cemettery is very wet. But the flowers on his grave still look fresh even after nearly a week.

Miss you more and more each day, love you Christian.