the long walk home...

well we were offered a lift and declined, you can't make someone who is 7 months preganat drive you home at 11pm!!!

Lovely Saturday, lunch with the mums, retail therapy courtesy on my mum as I am so ridiculously broke! Really must sell some more jewellery.

I have never been great with money and I am trying very, very hard at the moment to be very disciplined as I really appreciate the oportunity to be at home with Alfie rather than work. I know a lot of mums who would kill to be in my position (I also know that a lot of mums function better to have their own work so am making no judgements you have to find what works best for you and your family) If work makes you happy that is what is best for you and yours, if being at homes makes you happy... ( I am lazy and love being at home, but still need my own thing and am lucky enough to have an outlet for my artistic 'talents' for the first time in 20 odd years in making my jewellery. I am also very lucky that Stuart supports this so wholeheartedly)

At the moment all the money I take form any sales goes to the card I use purely for the beads etc. to make the jewellery. It is slowly decreasing but it does leave v short of cash for luxuries in the way I am used to. I have always had my own (if somewhat limited) money and it is a real struggle to be reliant on Stuart for any cash I have and he pays for so much it makes me feel guilty to ask. The run up to Christmas doesn't help as I would like to be able to pay for his birthday and Christmas presents myself.

I really wish I was stronger about pushing my jewellery and getting it out there to more people. I could do more fairs but the whole point was to not loose family time and find ourselves running seperate lives, me with Alfie in the week and Stuart with him at the weekend.

That said I am doing next Friday night at a local school which I am really looking forward to, Christmas fairs are lovely. Also doing the one at Alfies nursery on the 4th which should be fun.

Sorry, novel done and back to Saturday!

A lovely evening last night too, very spoilt and well fed and Beep Erz and Sarinas. Erz cooked some fabulous food and Sarina pandered to our every whim which made me feel very guilty, but I did enjoy it Shree. Thank you both for a fab pm.

The walk never seems that long until you are doing it with a very sleepy 3 year old and bags of kit. Not that he looks sleepy here! Woke up in a fab mood and went straight back to sleep when we got in, result! Bigger result mammouth lie in too.