how ironic

i snapped this while waiting at a traffic light. it was early in the morning and i was on the way to a meeting. i was trying to be in better spirits even though i was running on not enough sleep and a bad attitude. my day before had been craptastic and i wasn't in the mood to be chipper and positive. everything felt heavy. . .all around me people i love are falling apart.

it's not my job to pick up the pieces but they call and they want to share their burden with me and i feel responsible because i love them. meanwhile, i am not paying attention to my own needs. i'm spiraling into a bad place. i'm short-tempered lately. eating sugar again because it's there. (it makes me mean. i need to stay away from it.) not sleeping enough. work is insanely busy and i can't seem to keep up. i pride myself on being on top of things. i am working too many hours and not remembering to eat lunch until 2pm. i haven't worked out in weeks. my skin is breaking out (and my vanity can't take that!).

things are a bit of a mess right now because i am not taking care of ME. i can't take care of anyone or anything else until i do that.

it's that simple.

it's that complicated.

then i got a speeding ticket.

fanfuckingtastic.