Escape into the Light

I've always thought of the Internet as a boon and bane. I'm fairly apt at using it as a good resource tool, but unfortunately, sometimes as a means of 'escape' too, from the realities of life.

Something like, now.
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My aunt who was hospitalised for her back problem is now on radiation therapy. She does not want to say much about the whys but I got to know some of the details from her son. I can only imagine it has been quite a lot for her to handle, one shock after another.

And I don't understand it.
I don't understand why good people who are so sincere, so dedicated and loving to their family, who give their whole selves to the calling as daughter/sister/wife/mother have to suffer so much in their later years, just as they approach their retirement age, where they are to relax and savour life.

I don't understand it.

I don't understand why it can happen to my Grandma, my Mum, my 3rd aunt, and now my 4th aunt.

I don't quite fully understand life and its sufferings, and the crosses we are to bear. And quite frankly, I don't think I will get any answers for my 'whys'. I could try asking the 'hows' -- of how am I to receive this message in my heart, how am I to journey with my aunt and her family through these times.

With my brokenness, frailty and limitations, I would like to try. But this is so hard. I can only pray and trust that God's Mercy, Grace, and Love will comfort, guide and help my 4th aunt. That the Lord will pull us through as one big family.

God, please be our light and guide.
Amen, Amen.