Fed Up..

This is me, sitting in our conservatory, I dont want to be here, i want to be in Australia, i want to live a very different life to what i have at the moment. Unfortunatly, Money and Qualifications say i cant live my dream, instead im off to work in about an hour at a place i dont want to be any more BUT the only way i can see me achieving my goal is by staying where i am and continue my training..

im 33 now and aim to be where i want to be by the time im 40... I know we should make plans for the future BUT i also want to live for the moment and right know i feel trapped..

I HATE THIS FEELING....