I took a picture 10 years ago that looked like I had been hurt. I revisited it tonight. It still a difficult picture. Always in the mirror although last time I had a different pose. I continue to be attracted to the self portrait. I always want to find myself in a mirror as though the image I see isn't the real me.

I have been dreaming of my mom every night for about a week. I miss her. I keep dreaming that she is about to die but I have five more minutes. When she finally dies, I see my dad. We go to hug each other but instead hug strangers. It's not a difficult dream to interpret but it still makes me sad. How can I get closer to my dad when my Mom's death comes between us?