can you tell me, what it is you're afraid of?

i can't believe that it was only a week ago i earned this. it doesn't feel earned though.
that's what scares me. it feels taken.

"MIFA State Individual Events 2009-2010 Class BCD Tournament 4th Place Duo Interpretation"

it doesn't feel deserved and I don't know why. We went there and did what we set out to do. Prove ourselves. That we're better than they said we were. That we worked harder than they say we did.
That we deserve this.

But I don't feel it.
And now I miss it and I want another shot to prove myself.

'cuz i'm holding on. and i won't let go. i just thought you should know.