simple composition. simply letting go.

Oh goodness, I'm actually surprised I'm still awake!
Got home from performing our final winterguard performance of the season about an hour ago, and I'm just starting to settle down....I almost fell asleep while washing out all that hairspray in the shower! If I did, who knows how THAT would've ended....


I truly felt today,
while performing,
that I put my all into it.
Those many conflicts that have made me suffer over the year were incorporated into setting the necessary "emotion" to our movements -- every single one of them.
For our show theme this year:
was conflicts.

Whether it be with
friends,
family,
or strangers,
the point of the show was to display the process of a conflict:

There are two sides,
both of them disagree with each other.
At times, they feel angry and resentful,
At others, they feel melancholy and a want to give up arguing or trying to fix things,
Yet there are also moments where there's hope, desperation, a fear of letting go.

All these elements were choreographed into one 4-minute winterguard show.
And even with our ups and many, many downs,
I don't regret joining in the first place.
It was an amazing experience for me, both physically and emotionally.
It helped me to understand people more,
and about my insecurities.
It gave me a great opportunity to express my emotional distress -- and cope. To accept. To learn from it.

Thank you, Ultimatum.
You've opened up my eyes,
and now it's time to simply let you go....