What am i doing?

Messy church was huge tonight. The crafts worked really well but I really shouldn't have led the worship and story. I realised how under prepared I was. I was relying on myself and not God. It was so stressful. I had to shot to be heard over the noise of the children ( even with a mic) and I don't think I engaged them at all. I couldn't remember the actions to the sings my whole involvement was a disaster. I had to leave as soon as if finished my bit so I didn't get to speak to Robert. It left me wondering what in earth I'm doing. Should I be doing it. I am now at STETS and hit the road running. Straight into a seminar and then a meeting. Finally unpacked the car at 9:15 and discovered a man in my allocated room! Finally found my correct room dumped my stuff and went to the bar. This is what I found when I returned! This is how my head feels. I'm trying to juggle too much I think and not doing anything properly. I need to rethink my priorities.
Everyone at college has been so affirming of my calling.