Every relationship has its ups and downs

Tomorrow I have to go to the doctors about a constant cough I have, a bad ankle and my fingers which get a sever reaction ginger (which does not help when you are working in an Asian style hotel).

Maria knows I am scared of them but she does not know why.

She was trying to help me and when I had a negative response she just stopped talking. So to make things better I told her the REAL reason why I am scared. A loved one of mine when though a sever health problem and ended up 3 months in hospital, for me it was hard to see loads of doctors and nome of them could help them.

This is the picture of the entrance I would walk through each time just to see them.

After I told her of course i was upset with the memory and she only read the last bit of my message as that was the first thing she saw on her screen. She thought I was angry and upset at her rather than the memory.

Everything backfired then and she is currently refusing to read the previous message which is not helping the situation.

I am a positive person (you really have to be in a long distance realtionship) and I am sure tomorrow things will start to get better and she will understand d my reaction.

It has hurt me that I have poured out my fears and my heart which nobody knows the details why I hate them. Even so no matter what it is still maria and I cannot stop loving her for anything.