If only

If only.... I was I was on a beach... I tried to imagine I was in this picture I have in my bedroom whilst I was inside scanner for an hour and a half today. Not the best of days as I ended up later back in a huge amount of pain and nearly fainted several times. I had to go to bed for the afternoon while it calmed down. Sadly the storm was raging outside and it seemed like our turret was swaying. Missey doesn't like storms either!
In the words copied from a children's book Mary Kate that my mum has said to me every year on the night before my birthday. 'This is the last day that you will go to bed [age] and when you wake up in the morning you will be [new age]!' She has said this in person, on the phone or even by text to me for 42 years. Now I'm going to be 45, how bloody old is that?