My Day

Yesterday I was 24 and today I’m 25, time run so fast. After the accident I felt that the earth stop for me or I say I’m the one who stop coz literally the earth continue moving on its orbit. Seriously I’ve been hurt physically and emotionally. There are lots of changes happen and sad to say I’ve been change. I prayed to the lord that this year 2014, I have a positive vibes that my life would be better. There are things come into my mind before that accident happen, the place I want to go, a thing that I really want to have and a possible person that I be able to be love. I sense that I can have it all but in just one slap all this been devastated. Do I too predictive to my life in this year? No... What’s wrong of wishing or dreaming all this? I’m just living with a simple life. I’m not expecting I’m just hoping. Even I don’t have it already it was taken instantly. Huh! I said I hate planning of my life what should I be because I just let it to be. My life became ironic at present now.

To those who don’t know what I’m talking right now, yes you read it the word accident; six month ago it was a motorcycle accident. I called it second life, the fact that the wound was healed but I felt there something wrong with my knee that I cannot to walk easily. Sometimes it bend freely that might be able for me to fall while I’m standing or walking. Last August I’ve been through with MRI test, the doctor said that there is no fracture or any problem on my left knee and he recommend to undergo rehabilitation for strengthening of the muscle on my knee. I’m ready for rehabilitation until my mother texted me that my grandmother died, at that moment were in Manila with my father. The only thing came into my mind why all this happen?? Until my tears start to fall and I cannot control it. I feel sorry for my father that he was not able to see her mother for the last day of her life. Rehabilitation was over we need to go back in our province.

Yes, I belong to disabled as they say that give me so much pain when I heard that word to other people. But what disable really meant? You know, I can still do work. The different is I can do it with limited movement compare before that I just rushing things to perform it. Sorry to those people who think that I made them slave coz I really need your help that’s why I keep on asking a favor. It is not my intention to be like a boss, I just ask for you to help me. And I want to believe that at time of my grief their still someone or a FRIENDS who really cares for me.

Why god let me survive to that accident? To suffered from this situation? I did not blame Him coz he’s the only one who know what will be I am. I endure so much pain and pity for myself for the reason that it impossible for me to go everywhere I want or even to travel alone. It change me, the way I treat my friends, some people around me, and the way I smile, laugh coz I don’t know if it is true or not. All I know now is to cry. I pray to the lord please take me rather than saying thank you for the life. This is how I really felt. I’m pushing myself to be happy, but the true is I couldn’t find any happiness in my heart. I look ridiculous sometimes that I couldn’t recognize myself.

BUT BEYOND OF ALL THIS….

All happened for a reason and for the second life given to me must be cherish, that even I experience pain and heartbreak there is any reason to live. I realized that all things are just temporary and instantly can be taken away. Money, success, fame and even life are just short term because it was only borrowed from Him. Despite of regret and losing everything in my life you didn’t hear me that I’m quitting even I say lord take me, because there still chances saying that I should fight for this mission given to me. I stand and walk slowly and continue living for this cruel battle called LIFE. Bring it on KYRA KAE!! You have that double K “KAKAIBA KA” ….ajaaaaaah! 

THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD FOR ANOTHER YEAR OF MY LIFE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
10-15-14
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