Qualifiers 2014

Psyched myself up for today. I had to really, my heart's not really in this any more. Well, I've certainly been wondering that lately.

I got up at 9am, and enjoyed TV and tea on the sofa. I left my hair till later, and just did my make-up, so it seemed to take less time to get ready. A pit stop at Mum's, where Little R did my tan for me which saved me a job! Did get into trouble for doing it there though....

I did a couple of errands and then went to Costa before heading over to Guildford where the competition was. There seemed to be less people this year, so we knew we didn't have to fight for places, and that we would just go straight through.

I've kind of felt I would just give it a go this year, and not worry about the outcome. I thought it might be easier as well. Today showed me I do still care about dancing, but I'm still in two minds. Sometimes I feel I don't belong there any more. Not least when I came off the floor and one of the bosses from the dance called me over to tell me my arms were weighing too heavily on my partners, making her job harder. I'd already apologised to my partner as I knew this, and it was because of being nervous- it can make you take up the 'death grip'. Way to make a person feel secure....I actually had tears in my eyes and thought "I really don't want to do this". Still, we ploughed on...

Although we automatically qualified for both ballroom and latin, they take each comp down to a final. Just when I was fantasising about ballroom being over, and about getting changed/using the loo/walking around without 5 feet of material around my ankles and trying not to tread on it or in anything, my number was called for the final! I enjoyed dancing, but expected to take the 6th place. I was pleasantly surprised to be placed 4th!

I enjoyed being back out there, and I can focus just on me now, as this competition's final isn't until April. Just not sure I can make it through the next few months.

I missed the gym tonight too! Well, you can't have everything!