searching steel eyes

today was my first day of nannying little corrine. she is adorable. this is her after she had just woken up for her nap...in my arms. she fell asleep sprawled across my chest. i then resigned myself to my position on the couch, reached for the closest object in sight (the remote) and began watching saved by the bell. the early years.

so yeah. it was pretty good.

also watching her wake up was one of the cutest things ive ever seen. she awoke so slowly and i could see her eyes adjusting to the already awake world. i felt like i could see her mind processing. she also did several glorious full body stretches. i envied her.

i myself did not sleep last night - which i assumed would be the case. i tried to go to bed at 11 and finally fell asleep somewhere around 3.30 in the morning. i had to wake up at 5.45 so, not a great start to the long day. but i made it through. you may ask - what does one think about for 4.5 hours of lying in bed? the answer is nothing. i wasnt thinking of anything. it was terrible.

onward though. hopefully ill sleep tonight.

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and i told you to be patient / and i told you to be fine / and i told you to be balanced / and i told you to be kind

and now all your love is wasted / and then who the hell was i? / and im breaking at the britches / and at the end of all your lines

who will love you? / who will fight? / who will fall far behind?

[bon iver, skinny love]