A Vision on "Carlsheaven"

We are still blinking with our eyes. Look, where we are! And a bright sun keeps shining all day long. How did we ever manage to move in here? And here you can look and walk around the house, being really outside. Looking far over the valley from East to West, walk up into the hillforest. And where have most of our Roses gone? In the neighbourhood people know: it’s the deer, they have eaten All my Beautiful Roses away. Such a pity!

And we had a long conversation. We all know a friend living a terrible life in suffering from illness for a long time. Which makes it nearly impossible to enjoy even a beautiful after summer day. But there is also a sign of hope: this simple fact of making a walking round on your own in the morning. Certainly, this means a courageous step forward! Or just sitting at a table and speaking about choices we still have, even when we feel prisoner of being-ill. How do you do that? Leaving your poor ego with endless thoughts and open up towards your unique inner way? How to do that in practice, where nothing works?

How do you find your starting-point? Hey...isn’t that the question I keep turning around so often in this Journal? Aren't these the impossibilities in my own daily struggle? My Journal presents a permanent quest for creative selfhealing. Even if we do not have an off/on switch for our rational ego-consciousness, we do have access to that other and deeper dimension of our Being a Self, our deep subjectivity. In the depth of that “Self”, no separation between body & mind & spirit & soul can be found. There in the full streaming of Life any start has already been made. But how do we change a fundamental lack of faith in the ever streaming power and energy of Life itself? How do we Awake? By Praying? Yes, indeed! But I am quite aware of the frequent falling back into the logic of rational consciousness. Instead of keeping your heart faith and trusting your intuition.

This is the real challenge Life never stops to confront us with. This is Life’s basic appeal and task to any and everyone of us, young or old, rich or poor, suffering or in good health. Here we have to find our own unique answers, our absolutely individual, authentic Truth. Not by hiding from or running away or rejecting and resisting against our Fate. This is the Yellow Brickroad or The Way we all have to go, never reaching any final result, never ready, but always growing and ripening anew, every day again&again, breathing and overcoming, blinking our eyes with a smile.