Sorry for the silence. I've been really bad lately at updating and pretty much being on top of my daily tasks in general.

I've been finding myself extremely overwhelmed the last few weeks. More then the usual craziness and busyness. I've been letting it get to me more than I usually would. I think a big part of it is that I only have about 5 more weeks in Jordan. So I'm feeling like I'm in that "limbo" phase, where I have one foot in the door and one foot out.

I'm slowly completing my time in Jordan and therefore completing my Arabic classes and my internship....yet while I feel like I'm finishing things up...nothing is slowly down. Well, nothing is slowing down except for my motivation to do anything productive cause thats the problem with limbo. I feel like I'm half out the door already cause I'm job searching and trying to figure out what my life will be like after Jordan. So I'm half here and half not. Mentally I have become so useless these days and thats is causing more and more stress about needing to be productive.

Limbo is just a weird phase. Its a phase that I always fine extremely annoying every time I'm in it! I get very irritated with myself because I become very lazy...but even though I like to be a busy person....I can't get myself up or get myself to do anything. Its a gross cycle. I have to get my act together and I will. It's just a part of limbo or me. I think it's slowly how I start to emotionally and mentally "check out" and deal with leaving a place because it's different then just changing jobs...it's changing my whole life again. Different place, different work, different people around me, different mindsets, habits, routines, different language, different home, etc.

Limbo is this weird in between phase. That phase when I'm not done with my life here in Jordan, but I'm planning for my "next life" somewhere else. So my mind plays tricks on me and makes me super lazy and such because my mind kinda thinks I'm not here anymore, even though I am. Oh limbo....yuck!

This is a photo I took and then spent way too much time not being productive and playing on one of my photo editor Ipad apps. :)