Going back

Do u ever had a dream? Actually I don't have one for my own. I'm one and only dream is to make our family a better life and my parents don't need to work anymore and I want an economic independence for real. I love my family I love where I live so much but what had pushed me going away from home. That's ridiculous that I call it fate.

One year ago when I finished my college I should have been taking the job in that website and it seems everything could have settled down, but I decided not to take that as my starting point so I gave up and pursued a higher diploma in Hong Kong. I missed them so much and also put a lot pressure on them even though I shouldn't do that. And now I can have another career opportunity here in canton but I still gave that up and decided to go back to Hong Kong that mean city to look for a job where I have no one to depend on and have to start living by myself. You could say that I'm ambiguous but I'm really not. I want nothing but to live a casual life. I'm not that desperate for success that's why every time I leave town I feel so alone and depress. This is the real time for me to go back there and lead my own life, can I make it? I hope so. 5years ago I've led my way to success in school and now I want my success in career hope that I'm not being too greedy.