New start!!

I haven't blipped in a while, which I'm kinda annoyed about but I will be back blipping at some point!!

The last couple of weeks have been very up and down. What with assignments and lots of things changing it hasn't been easy. But things have changed for the better too! I've met some amazing people and had some fantastic nights out, and the shitty things are becoming less of an issue. Things aren't perfect though (although it never will be!!) and things have sort of exploded in the last day or so.

I have problems being around people anyway, and recently meeting new people has made things quite tricky with some of the people I live with in halls. I didn't want the two groups getting merged and for things to become any trickier than they already are, but the inevitable happened and things have happened and people are getting involved where they don't need to be. I have problems with people knowing certain aspects of my life anyway and it suddenly becoming public knowledge and being judged about it has messed with my head to a whole new level. I simply don't get on with the people I live with right now, and I'm battling through until I can go home, but today things have gone too far, to the point where I wasn't sure what I could do to help myself and the situation any more.

I honestly have not felt more victimised and bullied in my life than today and knowing there were people around who could have helped but who chose not to was an absolute kick in the teeth, but after a good rant and bitch with Amelia over dinner, and coming up with a plan in my head I know now what I need to do to make the next couple of weeks bearable and how to put the last year behind me so I can move onto second year, and I'm already feeling a lot happier.

I'm going to remember what I have to look forward to next year, moving into my house, with a group of amazing people who have been so welcoming and friendly when I was shit scared about what was going to happen in terms of living arrangements and generally continuing to next year, and their friends who have let me join their friendship group so easily and don't even find me that weird! Haha, result!! :)

This photo is my pin board in my room. Most of the things on it were gifts or strange little things I've collected over the years. The majority are guiding or scouting related, and are thank you's for various events and for volunteering as a leader. I don't feel that I ever deserve to be thanked for doing something I love so much but it's a nice reminder that even when I feel unappreciated or forgotten, that someone is thankful for me being the weird girl who likes to make bracelets with 6 year olds, or a million tiny fires, or for helping 30 girls put on one hell of a pantomime raising a load of money for charities (although, I got to use glitter for the last one, so I was already sold really!!)