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so finally a free (ish) day.
I fix the boiler (man points to me), I eat, clean up, put on the laundry and run for as far as I can for 2hrs. The run is in a month. I'm scared I've not trained enough.

the rest of the day was intended for productive working but instead it slides past on the back of faffy side projects and side tasks. if i can't work now, then when? thesis is due in 12 weeks I need to kick myself into routine, action etc.. I know there is work drifting in my head that if I don't pin it down I will lose. Got a gig on wednesday and I've not spent the time preparing for that either.

Think events of the last few weeks have taken their toll a little, I'm self sabotaging badly. I've not tracked the ocd attacks but they are off the scale.

7/10