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Pharrell Williams - Happy

It's been an extremely productive day. I collected an award for a photo competition and was extremely happy with myself. Then I went to the gym, then after my Japanese lesson, bought a new suit with shirts and ties, bought a present that has genuine meaning and love, and then had a genuine meet up with my close friend (Odofuran) that was full of love.

I was in extreme thoughts today, both positive and negative. My mood swings would engulf me in a sense of loss, but thankfully I'm a little older now to now when to ride it and keep cool. It was great to just release the valve with my friend and we've both become better people as of late, speaking to each other with more purpose.

I wanted to delve into my negative today and explain how meaningless it is in the end and that a number hovers over our heads but our selfishness anchors us to think that we're actually special, but it's ok. I woke up this morning ready and happy to take on the world whilst ready to subside into deep despair in equal measure. But there's nothing holding me back except an invisible fear that actually has no credence from lack of evidence.

It was a great day.