This Is What It Feels Like

"And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it to the shore without your light
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like"

I do love this song, Armin Van Buuren I think it's by. Sort of sums up how I feel at the moment, about so many things.

I felt more human today, although had waves of nausea throughout the day, but you never really know if it's real or all in your head. I hurt my knee a little at dancing yesterday. It hurt a bit today, so although I wanted to stay home, I pushed myself to go to at least the class. Wherever I am at the moment I just want to be somewhere else.

Sigh.