18th March 2014

Woke up feeling a bit strange and things didn't really change all day. I guess talking to my brother last night had helped me cope with the house clearance but he also told me about how he'd had a text message conversation with out sister. She wasn't concerned about Dad moving to a care home, selling the house, losing his independence, being all alone. She just wanted to know if he had changed his will and if so was she still in it. I tried to stop feeling angry with her months ago, but she's really got me feeling down today. I can't believe we're related!

Then this evening I find out a dear friend who has been in and out of hospital over the past few weeks due to having pains and then collapsing, has had her test results come back and it's that bloody awful evil disease. I think I'm going to hide away tomorrow and either sleep or cry all day.