From One Colour to Another

Another early morning rise; it was still dark.

Late morning I walked along to the Dr’s, then along to the Counsellor. A really tough session, it is really surprising what comes out and C has seen a pattern emerge that I need to work on and get rid of. There were many tears and tissues used. Walked home in tears and tried hard not to think of self- harming when I got home. Failed. I just can’t do what everybody that knows, wants me to do. Failed again.
Feeling really sad tonight.