a new day

so, i didnt take this photo. obviously.

but i really wanted to write something tonight - so i am glad this photo was taken. i find it kind of intriguing anyway.

i left on a somewhat negative note and i just wanted to let anyone who was concerned know that, i have learned to breathe.

ive been able to be really productive the past few days and get the amount of work under control. i still wont have any sort of social life, but the amount of work is do-able. hopefully. at least i feel that way right now.

at least i feel that way about this week. and that is all i can ask for. one week at a time.

learning to breathe.

i cant stop listening to "margot and the nuclear so and so's." and by cant stop i mean, really, i cannot stop. i play it on repeat throughout the day. a few quotes that catch my ear every time:

"and if you love well then that should be enough"

"and when we kissed it didnt feel poisonous"

"when i awoke i was alive in somebody's room. i felt life and love and hope infested my bones."

"and you came well equipped, with a gun on your hip and some poison on your lips"

"and sarah screamed, your every breath is a gift"

so theres that.

i have been reading so much poetry lately. and i love it. at the moment i feel like i have spent a little too much time with john donne, and my mind needs a short break from his incessant wit and impossible conceits. but it is really delightful. it occurred to me today that i have learned more than i have ever learned in a class in this class. i havent just attained knowledge, i have been learning a skill. i feel like i am infinitely better at reading due to this teacher. it is amazing. and fun. lord i am a nerd.

i should spare myself and you all and end there. end scene.