Another day

The rain is still falling. I can hear the thunder rumbling and see the flicker of lightning through the window above. I'm very excited to finally be able to leave the house tomorrow, rain or shine. I'm starting to feel sad though. I have to go back soon and I don't know how I'm going to cope. I don't know whether I will be happy or sad. I don't know what the next term holds. I'm scared I think. What if I lose it all again. I'm going to miss my family so much. Tilly's creepy smile and affectionate squeezes. The comfort of Lydia being Lydia . Mum's calming words. Dad's bear hugs. Gideon's playfulness and innocence. Jacobs medical trivia. I will miss the woods and the mud. The rain and the gravel paths. The sea and the hills. The open sky. The peace. This is my home and I will miss it always. But I must go back soon.