After a rough night sleep I feel shattered today. Perhaps just the lack of sleep, perhaps something more, we shall see.

Another unexpected Queensferry day as tomorrow I have a trip to the West to see my girl. We did everything differently today mother and I, it seems different and unexpected are the key things just now. She is keen to buy, put up, and look at all things glittery, perhaps it is the season, or perhaps she sees them better as they catch the light? They make her smile, she loves Christmas and it is begining to brighten her.

Another thing that catches the light and makes me smile at this time of the year is the sight of freshly furrowed soil. Those massive clods of earth churned up and seeking heat. So full of the promise of a new season, so full of hope, their promise of new life in the coming months. I find it comforting, but stop just before I try shaking my face right in the thickest sludge.

I am looking forward to squeezing my girl to within and inch of her life tomorrow. I hope she is prepared to hold me up as I dissolve in her arms.