Smoking isn't my worst habit

Recently I was approached be a friend and asked "why are you smoking? It's such a gross habit! Are you just doing to to be cool?" I answered her with "I'm just trying it. That's all".

But the honest reason why I chose to smoke is cause of my great gramma. I always had this dream that I would sit out on her porch with her and smoke. Strange dream I know but it's all because if her that I love the smell of cigarets. I love all the memories I have with her, smoking reminds me of them all.

Smoking, though it may be looked at as a bad habit, has helped me to kick an even worse habit. From 7th grade through to my freshman year of college(this year) I would cut my left wrist whenever I was upset, which was almost every day.

But the taste of the tobacco and the sight of the smoke calms my heart and mind.
He who doth not smoke hath either known no great griefs, or refuseth himself the softest consolation, next to that which comes from heaven.
-Edward George Bulwer-Lytton