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It's hard work. Zali refused to pose upside down for me. Lucky my little model Maya is willing to pose for her mummy.

A long and very strange day at work. I am thinking of doing a photography course at RMIT. I've fallen in love with this hobby of mine, and I need to find out how far I can take it. And perhaps figure out whether I actually have the talent to do this. So I emailed an enquiry last night about some short courses I could do, leading to perhaps some further studies down the road. And then instantly regretted it.

And then...one of the creative directors at work (I work in an advertising agency) approached me at work, to tell me how impressed he was with the photos I took at the work trivia night, and how he thought I had a really good eye for photography, and he asked me if he could have a look at my photos (I had previously spoken exactly 0 words to him in the entire time I've worked there). So I emailed him my flickr link.

Now all of this was so overwhelming for me, so I actually completely freaked out about it all, and was a bit depressed for the rest of the day. What am I thinking??? I am a 42 year old mother of 2 who works in accounts payable. I've never been any good at anything creative before in my life. Seriously, I am just feeling ill. I am so out of my comfort zone.

Anyway. Trying to calm down tonight and just not think about any of it. There are way too many amazing people in this world who take the most brilliant photos (i.e. like all of you beautiful people on blip) - I am finding it hard to believe that I could do anything with this.

Sorry. Rant over. Having trouble working out why I feel so weird and anxious about this.

Ang x