Remember, remember the 5th November

Bonfire Night! As a little girl one of my favourite days! As an adult one of my hardest days! How ironic!

5 years ago today I hugged my mum goodbye for the last time. It's scary how quickly it's gone by. Tomorrow is the actual anniversary of her death but I couldn't bring myself to go to the hospital knowing I would watch her die that day so said my goodbyes the evening before. It was the hardest thing I have ever done! Cancer is pure evil!

I'm busy tomorrow which is a blessing. Charlotte has her eye clinic appointment and then I'm working. It's good for me but I'm expecting to shed a few tears. It seems to get harder each year, probably as I think less about her being gone now as I've got so used to her not being around. It means when I do think about it I feel guilty!

I've blipped Charlottes firework picture tonight. I lack the skill and the patience to get a decent firework shot so this is my interpretation of one!