Thinking too much

So lately I've been thinking way too much about silly little things that shouldn't really bother me.

I want someone out of my life but at the same time something inside of me is tell me to keep them close. I don't know what to do, have you ever felt that way? Why do I keep thinking about them? They are nothing special that person doesn't think of me at all so why do I bother ? I feel like giving up with them. There is just no point. They only bother with me when they feel like it. I am nothing special to them they don' t care about me.

As you can tell at the moment I'm kinda upset about the whole thing. I know I shouldn't be but I don't know what to do.