Why do I do it to my self?

I have a phobia of drowning and therefore am not a natural on or near water. I have canoed down the Dordogne before ( twice) and survived so agreed to do it again. However I didn't take in to account that Reggie wouldn't understand why I was so scared, and that he shouldn't rock the boat! He soon settle down and enjoyed the ride, it took me a little longer to be able to move, open my eyes , of let go of the side of the boat, but once I did I began to enjoy the scenery.

Mr H took this photo as proof for Miss H back home that I did agree to put my self through it again, despite saying 7 years ago never again!