Autumnal evening light

but warm. 

School all day. We had half a day, but I continued with the work. Tomorrow morning I have a meeting with my teacher, so I'm ready. We'll make a plan for the studies. She does that with everybody. Also my chance to ask questions that I have on my mind. I do have a list of those. 

We're studying the laws and the morals and the ethics of it all. So so so so many laws and regulations. Different laws depending on which institute or is it a hospital. Now all I see is what is illegal at the places where I do the gigs. And how I have no chance to affect that. All I can do is do my best. I feel like I wanna give up at this point. My head and heart might not be able to take this contradiction in values and ethics. But I can talk with my teacher tomorrow in private. 

I'm exhausted. I feel like using my brain is harder for me than using my body (doing physical work). I'm just like a dog ;-)