Home Alone

I’m at home alone, thinking about the week to come and what I want to do in it.
Mostly I’ll be continuing my building project of course. I’m looking forward to that, but at the same time I’m forcing myself not to want to go to fast.
I’ve an end result in my head and want to get there in no time, but that’s not good. One step, or one nail at a time is better.

Today I’ve ordered lots of stuff online that will be delivered in 1-3 days so I guess tomorrow will consist of minor things. Maybe starting with painting a primer on the beams on the ceiling.

But why am I at home alone right now.
Daan is with Marit, and Annemarie and Bas are in Appingedam celebrating the birthday of Johan, her brother who’s visiting their parents.
I went there as well in the afternoon but left around 17:00 to walk with Toby and I choose not to go back.
I’m not into celebrating very much right now because of yesterday’s sudden sad news about my aunt Marian passing away. I got a call yesterday evening from Joke.
Terrible news. Another beloved part of my family gone. There’s only a few left now of my original family, not counting Annemarie and Bas and Daan, and that’s my sister Joke and uncle Cees (my mothers brother) and his children (my cousins) Gert and Freja.
I feel so sad for them. They’ve been taking care of my aunt every single day and night for the past years. Brings me back to one year ago, when my mother passed away. Still so weird.
So, there’ll be yet another family funeral by the end of the week I guess and I’m not (!!) looking forward to that at all.

Well, that sums up my day I guess. Lots to think about.