Monday

Woke and instantly thought about how I feel about S. Massively overthinking and I can't stop it. It is consuming me, even when I am busy. Also making me very angry and harming myself. I had an argument with an asda employee today, that is not me, and I know I am being irrational and horrible.  
I went for a big walk this afternoon, which didn't really help but I got fresh air and i moved. 
Later S text to say Lewis didn't get House Captain. He said he is really sad. I feel really sad for him and now all I can think of is how he is.