I want to stay asleep for more than four hours

This whole responding to stress by not sleeping thing is so maladaptive.

 I did some exercise but not a lot because I haven’t slept a whole night since I came back from Portugal.

I sent business emails!! Hooray me! I had writer’s block Thursday but late Friday managed to write a nice, “HI, I have a new company, send me work” email and today sent two of them. 

Then I went to the nursery to buy dirt which is typically a very dangerous thing to do but when you have no job you manage a bit more discipline. It does seem weird to pay money for dirt doesn’t it? 

I thought I should buy food-growing plants because … food. Money. Recession. Tariffs. Supply chains. But I don’t have a lot of sun. Or space. But I bought a few cheap plants anyway. I have a tiny dwarf tomato plant that has actual tomatoes already on it so I might get those anyway. Or the animals will. I bought a little pepper plant. I bought a little spicy bell pepper plant (what?). I bought a cucumber plant. None of these things have ever succeeded for me in the past but sticking to basil, which does, apparently isn’t enough when I’m sleep deprived. 

Lisa gifted me a blackberry plant and a blueberry plant so now I have a raspberry plant with amazing thorns that hurts me every year, a possibly dying but definitely not bearing fruit blueberry plant, an awesome cute and little blueberry plant that already has berries on it, a blackberry plant, and a strawberry plant. I almost never get to have the berries because I got tired of terrorizing little birds and squirrels who got caught in the netting, but again, decisions made when sleep deprived. 

This meant a couple of very fun hours gardening tonight. 

The quinceañera picture was interesting because all the other quinceañera groups at what I will start thinking of as Quinceañera Lake had professional photographers and this one stuck with cell phones. I thought about professional photographers and I thought about expenses and rituals and memories and what really matters here? They did it, they will remember doing it, and they don’t need to spend hundreds more on a professional and does the professional really need to eat? 

Russia lost two fighter jets, three helicopters, and 16 warships. Total cost:  Over $100 million.