Betty Boo.

Managed to fall off Buddy again tonight at my SJ training. He didn't feel quite right warming up but jumped the first few fences ok. Then he refused one, jumped it next time but bucked on landing. I came off the side and put out my hand to break my fall (stupid). In a lot of pain and couldn't carry on. Managed to untack one handed but no way I could load him or drive horsebox so had to ring Mike. He dropped me home and whilst he took Buddy back to the yard,  Rosie took me to A&E to get it x rayed. Was seen so quickly. Fortunately it isn't broken but it is very badly sprained, very painful and I can't move it very well. I'm not allowed to drive till I can grip the wheel and swerve. So I won't be able to work by myself. Which is a nightmare with being self employed. So lucky it isn't broken but it's caused me all sorts of headaches. Really didn't need this :0(. 

And I'm worried about Buddy. I feel like he bucked cos he is in pain somewhere as it's not like him. I knew he wasn't right in the warm up. I need to listen to my gut more. I also had a weird feeling on the drive over that I was going to come off and I remember the thinking how would I get Buddy home if I hurt myself. Think it was cos Eva refused to come with me as she wanted to ride tonight and then I started worrying I was going to get punished for being a selfish mum and not letting her have the ride tonight. Serves me right eh?!