Wet bluebells

Thank you so much for showing such support with all your hearts given to me. My emotions are all over the place at the moment, one moment I feel really positive and the next I feel as if I am drowning and cannot breathe. I had a disturbed night's sleep, I wake up and remember what is going on and then struggle to fall asleep again.

I am also feeling slightly overwhelmed about remembering to cancel bookings we have made, our trip to San Diego at the end of the month to see Adam is not likely to go ahead so I need to sort those cancellations. Every time I visit Gavin I have to check all his emails for invoices that have come through to be paid and it is tricky to stay on top of all the admin. 

Tommy arrived last night, later than expected due to his flight being cancelled and the next flight being delayed. This morning I quickly did another online grocery order, walked Xena, sorted the car insurance so Tommy can drive my car and then we went to see Gavin. 

He was feeling exhausted as he had a very bad night's sleep. The good news is that he was eating solids for the first time, although he was in great discomfort and pain afterwards as the bowel gets used to having to process food again. It's a slow process after the surgery to get his system coping with food. It was not a great day for him but it goes like that, one day up and one day down. The surgeon saw him twice today. 

I think we will feel better once we have met with the oncologist next week and know exactly what the treatment plan will be. 

We had a tricky journey home, there was a signalling problem so trains were cancelled, and we eventually got a train to a nearby village and then an Uber from there back home.

Last night after the heat of the past two days we had a good downpour of rain, the first time in months. The bluebells this morning still had droplets of water clinging to them. From the heat of 29C on Thursday it will be 14C tomorrow, a crazy difference.