medic unit

heavy air all day - droplets just hanging there, thinking about falling.

made for an interesting 6:30a run.

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i spend the great majority of my days here looking up famous people. not angelina jolie famous but famous in some circles, some circles that are wide and some are more narrow. this leads to typical self-questioning:

will some kid one day be sitting somewhere for work, googling my name and watching youtube videos of me speaking in order to decide whether or not i am worthy of a speaker slot at their symposium? will that kid write emails about how i'm "boring" - or worse yet "too academic" - or will they say "engaging" - "liked her."

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do i want some kid to be googling me one day? i can't decide.

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in the mean time, i am kept up at night by memories of my 11th grade self, being told by the tiny vegan girl i was on lit mag with that she was sure i was going to run for office one day. maybe i am kept up because, with the texas political climate being what it is, and me becoming increasingly interested in changing it, i am beginning to wonder if she was right.