Wednesday

I was a bit early to meet J (peer support) this morning, so had a wee wander round the area. The sun was shining in this alley and caught my eye. 
I am slowly trying to get my head round doing some volunteering and being serious about it, eg not giving it up after a few months. I am really trying to talk myself into this being a good thing as its not a natural feeling. I know I should be trying to get back into society and eventually  hopefully a job but to be truthful it is scaring me . I haven't been around people or groups of people for so long, and also not for more than a few hours. I also have developed a thing for noisy places too, as I'm so used to being by myself. J and I talked about going into Volunteer Edinburgh together to talk to them. I said I would email them........didn't say when though. 
She gave me a leaflet on weekend workshops at the Leith School of Art and one jumped out at me; Drawing as Meditation. Sounds brilliant but it is a lot of money and I am trying to justify spending that much on me, for enjoyment, and it not being a necessity. I am 99% thinking I will book it but still have that niggle. 

Left J and wandered down Leith Walk and into Embo for a very nice value for money bowl of soup and bread.