Lego

I am not doing very well so far this year - don't think I have taken any pictures just used those sent to me by other people?  No.2 sent a picture of his completed lego.  I bought him the Star Wars lego a few years ago and H bought him the Land Rover this year.  He's 31 - but guess Lego is ageless?

I had intended to go to BP this morning but didn't make it despite waking up early and OH going off to golf.  I felt so sad and couldn't do anything other than watch the films and look at photographs and cry.  I tried to give myself a talking to and went into Aimee's room to talk to her and even spoke to the Robin who was visiting, but just felt sad.  I had a shower and made a cake and S came for coffee and mopped up my tears and the day went on.  

OH home from golf and beans on toast for lunch.  We took the Christmas decorations down and pushed the hoover round and I fiddled on the computer (I have typed that a few times) and he watched something on TV.  Asking about dinner two hours after beans on toast so I quickly defrosted him a shepherd's pie that I had made a few weeks ago and I will have cheese.

Day done - and hoping tomorrow a better day.

PS - I was thinking to myself that if the positions has been reversed and I was sitting in Heaven (hopefully) watching Aimee grieving, I would not want her to be sad and to cry and I wonder if that is how she is feeling about me?  However it is so hard to control the tears and grief, here some days and not the next?  

Day done