Memories

It was a horrible year which resulted in the death of my darling daughter, aged 34.  I have recorded here before that she was my best friend in the whole world (say it quietly but she was my soul mate, the ying to my yang and I know that would be how I should describe my OH but in Aimee's words.........'it is what it is' and OH understands that).  I don't cry every day and we do move forward as that is what Aimee would want but I miss her ever day.  My overwhelming emotion over the last two years has been 'Sadness'.  Sad for everything she has been going through, sad for the many hours we spent at various hospitals and the various treatments and procedures, sad for all the things she will not get to experience, sad for a life of hope and happiness cut short, sad for James who has lost his life parter, sad for no children, grandchildren, holidays, promotions, travel........... the list is endless.   

But like guilt, I always feel there are some 'wasted' emotions as they don't do anything or get you anywhere so today I was not feeling sad and actually laughed a lot!   I had bought tickets to the Panto at the Palladium after BIL said they had enjoyed it.  I usually hate pantos but have only really seen provincial, small scale efforts.  This was BIG in every way, so many special effects and lights and costumes and laugh out loud funny (although very rude!) so life does go on, day by day step by step.  We had dinner at Tandoor before getting the train home and I did manage to stay up to see the fireworks (although I really wanted to go to bed and read my book).

My last Blip  of 2024 should be hundreds of pictures of my lovely girl but I have quickly collated 24 pictures and I know Blip will continue to indulge me when I continue to post pictures of Aimee when the mood/sadness takes me!!

Happy New Year one and all.