What do we do?

Yesterday was a busy, surreal day?  Aimee left this world at 1.16am and we sat with her for a few hours talking, sharing memories and tears.  We also laughed a bit and I said that there would be lots of cliches over the next few weeks , probably as people struggle to know what to say?

When JC's Dad arrived yesterday - he gave me an awkward hug and said 'sorry for your loss'...........  What?!  This is the girl that JC was marrying and he has known for 8 years and is my beautiful daughter, not something I have mislaid!!  Ok - I'll go easy on him - he is a bit emotionally stunted.

Everyone went home last night after me cooking Roast Lamb for 8 (ffs) and it was sort of a relief when the house was empty.  JC went back to Tooting but broke down and couldn't stay in the flat, cold and dark and no Aimee.  So he went back to Bucks with his parents.  

Today was a beautiful sunny day and I wish that Aimee could have held on and enjoyed the rays of sunlight coming into her room.  OH was restless and wanted to get out but I wanted to sort and tidy.  I sorted out her clothes and put everything back in her cupboard and all her bits and pieces around the house are back in her room.  Her pj's are folded and slippers are next to her bed.  The house is filled with flowers (ironically - wedding flowers) and her room smells wonderful.  I popped my head around the door to say goodnight before I went to bed - of course she wasn't there but I will continue to talk to her as if she was.

There has been lots of sharing of pictures and JC forwarded me this one taken on her 30th Birthday - looking radiant and the jumpsuit is still hanging in her wardrobe.