Twister

Spent until around 2pm on sofa, sleeping and doing nothing. Today's goal was to pick up my car from work that has been lying there for over 2 weeks and go for a coffee out.

As I walked over the park I spotted my brother and sis in law having a barbecue . They invited me over but I was determined to stick to my plan . Picked up the car and went for a coffee but realised when I was there that it wasn't the place to be, I felt anxious and emotional; I couldn't get out of there quick enough.

Text my brother to say I was heading back to them; maybe it would be better in an open space sitting relaxing. Spent the next few hours with them, which was lovely. Some time to chat; I only wish I was able to confide in them better than I do. I find it so hard to talk.

I am continually thinking about Monday and am feeling scared.