Stuck

24 weeks since "normal" life ceased. A relentless onslaught of random symptoms have been my reality ever since. Physio and targeted exercise seemed to make things worse - contrary to most literature found to date. Quite how one can be neurologically fine whilst walking for more than 20 seconds generates increasing pins and needles in your feet that grow in intensity and work their way up the legs into your back I'm not sure.

A beautiful morning triggered an outpouring of grief, frustration, guilt and goodness knows what else. Acquired a small fork and a very long pole to clip it into and a cutting / grabbing device this afternoon to try and be able to keep a tiny bit on top of the wildly enthused weeds. It sort of works, tried for a little while this afternoon.

Have everything crossed that the insurance company might a) be working tomorrow and b) finally give authorisation for diagnostic nerve blocks recommended by the pain management consultant they have on their books, who also trains all pain specialists in the region.....

Am beyond done with this episode, the uncertainty and the toll it's taking on my physical and mental health.

Hope you were able to enjoy the day.