20/40 Vision

Eye clinic today - eye capability measured.  Left eye has about 20% of normal vision, right 40%.

Then they tried to put drops in my eyes.

Never going to happen.

To say that I'm very sensitive to anything around my eyes is a bit of an understatement.  Full blown panic attack is nearer the mark. With added terror.  Add in hyper vigilance and exaggerated startle response.  That pretty much sums it up.  It was a pretty shitty 45 minutes (another understatement).

If you look at the Blip, you'll see that the plan is to inject my eye at the top and at the bottom.  Never going to happen in a million years.

The panic is far stronger than anything they can offer.  And the adrenaline is like poison to me.  I feel ill. Sick with it.