Otto the guinea pig

Gosh it's been a while but I feel ready to re-start posting again.  I have had three cycles of the clinical trial drug so far and it has been a struggle, this ended up with a 5 day inpatient stay last week, but I am now very much in better place and feel better than I have for a couple of months.  The treatment is on pause while I recover fully but I hope to start again soon.  I still very much want to get through the trial and complete the treatment.   So I find myself signed off work again, but calm and enjoying being at home, pottering and looking after the family and actually quite content.  

The hospital stay was a blessing in hindsight.  I met some very brave inspiring ladies that have shifted my perspective.  I have a lovely reiki session from a charity that provide therapies on the ward, and another therapist has given me some aromatherapy sticks for various issues and I am using those.  I think they may be helping me.

I am also nearly 4 weeks into using an antidepressant which I have refused for so long, but I think this has also benefitted me, levelled some of the anxiety. Sorry to overshare, but it helps while I am pulling myself back together.

Today I walked the girls to school, did some sorting out and tidying and some sewing and listening to an audio book.  Resting like I have been told too and enjoying it. 

Photo is of Otto, he is getting much more confident.  He is a bit of a nibbler though so don't put your fingers in front of his mouth.  He particularly likes to chew your sleeves!  He is a dear little thing.