2024 Tuesday — Place of my own

When Brian Wilson's words -- "There's a world where I can go" -- drift from my car speakers I get goosebumps, but a video doesn't begin to roll in my imagination.

For the first eight years of my life I was the little sister and the youngest person in my family. I shared a bedroom with my big sister. An invisible line separated her side of that room from mine. She loathed me because I had stolen her parents. That bedroom was not a private place.

When my parents marriage ended, a private place didn't exist anywhere. Very subtly and without anyone's permission I constructed an interior life. I don’t retreat to my bedroom or a corner of the backyard. I tuck inside my thought life. I can go there without a moment’s notice.

I go there when I walk the shoreline or when I’m walking the Embarcadero. It’s there that I sort the pieces of something that’s bothering me, like I sort and organize the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle or I go there to layout all the parts of an idea I’ve been brainstorming. It’s where I go when my anger is rising slowly toward an eruption that I don’t want anyone else to see. Sometimes it’s where I go when I need to idle, to coast, to kick it out of gear and rest in neutral.

I am 100% introvert. I can go for hours without talking. When I’m home alone, I’ve learned to talk out loud to the two pups so they know I’m okay.

In my adult life I've wondered if this interior life, this private place, that developed when I was a child, contributed to my being introvert. Possibly?

Thirty-one Day Writing Challenge.
From California’s Central Coast,
Rosie (& Mr. Fun), aka Carol
and Chloe & Mitzi too!

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JanuaryPrompt #2

Maybe there was a private place you would go as a kid? It might have been your bedroom? Or maybe it was a nearby park? Or the woods? Maybe there was a place in your backyard, “far from the madding crowd”? Now close your eyes, take a walk to that place from your front door. Go to your spot and have a look around. Do you have a place to sit? Sit down and see yourself as a little kid, in your place. Tell your story today from your place.