One of those nights

Day went pretty okay, with gym and diet, but it's one of those days when I don't feel happy, unsatisfied and overwhelmed. I have moods, and I act out. It hurts people closest to me but I don't know how to not do it.

Is the feeling of inadequacy in life always going to stay? No matter what you do, no matter how hard you try, no matter how much you want something to work, it just doesn't? That's not fair now, is it?

Truth is, today I feel like the future is bleak, very very bleak. I'm not sure what I want from life anymore. If I want to get married, have kids or what job I'd want, I'm just not sure.

It is not I realize these people at university here, will be gone. I'll be gone from their lives, and they from mine. It's coming to an end, hopefully tomorrow I feel better about being inadequate but tonight I'm snuggled in bed, miserable.

I am an optimist, always have been..but don't we all have days like this?