11

As I was writing a card for a friends daughters 11th birthday it hit me that if my IVF had been a success I’d have an 11 year old too.
Been so manic not had time for the usual reminder the feeling of feeling a bit blah. Then bam it hit you the loss of milestone, I would be thinking of getting them ready for secondary school, all the exciting end of primary school trips etc. writing this I have to stop and try not to cry. But it’s ok to, to mourn the loss of what could’ve been.